Some time ago I thought that it is too late to start a career in contemporary art. Firstly, I need to be at least ten years younger. Secondly, I also must not have any children, that is to say to be free, brave and active. Thirdly, my name needs to be shorter, more pronounceable, distinctive and memorable. Anyway, I have never liked my name. Moreover, the art that I make has to be completely different.

The first desire was to start all over again - delete all my accounts, redo all my works. But I realized that I couldn't. It was difficult for me, I regret the work done, I am not ready to give it up. I decided that since I couldn't change my circumstances, I could imagine myself being a different person: younger, braver and freer. It was such an experiment. I decided to make objects, to go beyond the frame which I usually work in. Not to embroider or draw, but make something dimensional.

As a basis, I took an old children's game which was called "secrets". In that game children bury various "treasures" (candy wrappers, flowers) in the sand, covering them with a piece of glass. These are childhood memories that are common for an entire generation of people.

Shared project (Evgeniya Tut, Inna Grishechkina)

Flicker. Dot. Signals" is an epistolary project by two artists - Evgenia Tut and Inna Grishechkina. Their dialogues are recorded in black and white on five canvases. But these conversations cannot be read in the usual way. When two ways of speaking collide, they form something like large raindrops or water ripples or stones on the shore. This is a special text with its own meaning. It can be learnt as a gesture of interaction and the desire to understand each other, the formation of speech and the emergence of language, the mechanism of human communication in itself.

2022

This project is a chain of balloons filled with helium. They rush upwards from the gallery window, representing an ephemeral staircase to the sky. The work tells about a childhood dream of becoming an artist. About how easy and joyful this path seems, but how unsteady and unreliable it really is. The balloons which I used tells about it. They are light and airy, they can fly into the sky, but they are not able to withstand the one who decided to reach the stars with their help.

Along with the work, the project includes the following text:

"Since my childhood, I wanted to become an artist. We had a lot of art albums at home; my mother collected pages from magazines where reproductions were printed. They lay in thick stacks in the wardrobe, and I often looked through them. Some of my friends- artists say that they had the same experience in their childhood. I remember my delight of seeing these paintings; their beauty took my breath away. I wanted to redraw many of them. It was like appropriating this beauty…, taking it away, "swallowing it." This was like some kind of greed. I drew a lot at home, then I started to study in an art school, then I graduated from the art faculty in the university. I studied enthusiastically, without taking almost any interest in something else. I participated in exhibitions too. I tried to go to Moscow Academy of Fine Arts, then studied for a year in St.Petersburg Academy of Fine Arts, until my eldest daughter was born. Then I graduated from the Faculty of Contemporary Art after my younger daughter's birth . And I always could see in front of my mind's eyes the image of a ladder which I climb up to my dream. And now it seems that I have walked all the steps and climbed to the roof. And there is nothing left between me and the stars except an empty space. And I only have to overcome it".

In the works of this series I use free verse as the main narrative and turn it into a QR code. By covering the background and grapheme of the code with an ornament and making it difficult to read, I achieve double coding. The canvas becomes the secret message that cannot be read without a key. But I give this key by putting the text in the title of the works. It is impossible to verify whether this is the same text or another; you can only trust the author. A certain gap appears - the possibility of doubt, a mystery.

2020

In this project I am working on one of my main themes - the theme of childhood, "art as a game", as well as the theme of the aestheticization of the / an error. In this series we can see an artist who, playing and fooling around, turns a fairy-tale illustration into an abstract image.

You can read these works as a metaphor - the pieces of the world don't fit together, it is impossible to understand what is happening. I admire this chaos, I put the elements in my own order, because I want to see what it will look like.

2019